Mak

This is Mak, bed fed dinner by my sister. Photo taken using my ipone 3g, so its a bit sucky. She was admitted yesterday. She is frowning as the iphone is taking such along time to snap the pics. Other than that she is in good spirits. Going to bring my Nex 5 there.

Kak June my second cousin called. She cried on the phone after hearing about mak. My mother is after all her only aunt left. Ah, the sadness. I hate it.

While we were at the hospital, I was laughing and laughing as though it was just one those visits. And I don't feel sad. I mean, there are the sadness all around me, but I think I should be sadder than how I am. Its hard to feel sad, when Mak seemed to be happier and angrier. I can't help laughing whenever I am there. And it is so inappropriate, that it beats me as to why I am there in the first place.

Mak at nuh

Breaking fast at nuh.

Mak is in nuh having fluids taken out of her lungs. She is in good spirits. We told her that if she was to be administered the good medicine, she has to eat. She finished a whole serving of the fish. Of course, credit must be given to keling as she patiently mash up the fish and firmly hand fed it to Mak.

Mak's mouth bled a little just now. Anyway, after the meal, some colour came back to her face.

My dad is worried as to where he should sleep later. As he will be alone, and he is afraid of the dark. I did invite him to sleep over at my place.

Slim.

2.44

It's 2.44 am. I have just spent more than an hour reading, at my mom's house. I drove back here as I could not sleep. So, instead of wandering about in the house, I ended up at my mom's place.

Dad was already asleep and mom seemed to be sleeping soundly. Although, in her condition, its impossible to tell.

Dad managed to compete the ramp outside the main gate. I hope he will not have any problems bringing mom out in her wheel chair tomorrow.

Lots of people came today.

I need to drive back home now. Feeling very tired and sleepy.

Slim.

Going back today

After sleeping over at my mom's place for two nights already, I am heading back to my home. It's not that I am looming forward to moving away from my mother, but I need a break from the sadness that I am feeling.

My mother seems happier today, although she has an asthma attack while we breaking fast. She is fine now.

Dad brought her out of her room to watch tv with us in the living room. She still has her wits with her. She made us laugh and my dad smiled and sniggered. I bet that made his day.

I am suppose to be on the way back now. But I am waiting for my little sis to come back home.

My darling wife, told me to stay put and not leave yet. I would have left if I was on my own.

Watching a Malay movie on Suria channel now. Don't know what the movie is all about though.

Slim.

Mom, supported.

According to my father and the doc, the cancer has spread throughout her body. 

Yesterday night, she woke up and called for me. So I had to drive to Tampines. Held her hand and well, it was very emotional. She said she did not want to die yet, she wanted to see my sister's wedding through. I told her, that all this negative thoughts are like prayers. She should think about positive thoughts, so those will be her prayers. She smiled.

We thought that it was her last moments. But thankfully it was not. She still could joke even in her condition, which I thought was quite encouraging. She said, not to switch off the lights. When I asked her why, she said, that my dad would not be able to sleep in the dark. (My dad is afraid of the dark). I laugh, she asked me why I am laughing. She said that my dad is afraid that something might come and take him away. She then used my hand as a support, turned to her side and fell asleep. 

Mom

Dad called me. Said that mom was looking for me. That was at 1.08 am.

I drove to Tampines.
She told me to take care of my two sisters when she is gone. She said that she does not want to die yet. She wanted to be there when Tini gets married. I told her that every negative thoughts she had is like a prayer.

She held my hand, turn to the side and fell asleep.

Not before telling me not to switch off the lights cause dad is afraid of the dark. She still jokes.

Slim.